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Game Over! You scored 91%! | | Your legend was a success! You defeated Ganon and rescued the princess... now for another quest. |  |
My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 86% on health |
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| Joy |
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| 02:06am 05/07/2005 |
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BM: Thief, your career as our leader reminds me of watching a blind child stumble through an uneven room laced with knives and tiger pits. Only not as interesting to watch, because you can always push the kid if it looks like he'd make it. Who's mom's favorite NOW?
RM: Wait, you murdered your own blind brother?
BM: It would have been CRUEL to let him live after what I did to his eyes.
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| So are they berries you drink through a straw? |
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| 01:25am 05/07/2005 |
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This just in: Silver Chaos, and everyone who knows what it is, r0x0rz. Yummers. I finally got to play it last night and made the resolution that I wasn't going to STOP playing until I got Lawrence in the sack. Now while I have started to pick up some words, I don't know any kanji. I don't even know how to recognize the words I know when I see them on paper. While I can understand a lot of what is going on between the acting of the seiyuu and the words I have so far learned, reading the kanji is just out of the question. This means that when it presents you the text options for which action to choose, your guess is as good as mine. FORTUNATELY I did learn fairly quickly the kanji for 'arimasen', which goes at the end of a sentence in the negative. This means that if it was asking me whether or not to do something, and if I could figure out what was the most important action in that scene to do, I could tell which answer was which. On the other hand, if it was like '1. Go for a walk' or '2. Go visit Hector', then I was up the creek without a paddle. It was a whole lot of fun trying to figure it out and I started to pick up some kanji from it, but it sure is tricky to get the story to go the way you want it. Especially with that prude Lawrence. That sexy, sexy prude Lawrence. Apparently all of his knightly training means that without being PROPERLY courted, there is no tumbling cute little ukes.
I was really amused that the first time through the game, I actually got the shortest route you can get. Granted it was the Evil Might/Herdeus ending, but I got to see all the great CGs I had earned. (Which included my FAVORITE one from the entire game. Very pleased to get that straight off the bat. Mmmmm, Lawrence.) I was also rather amused that in order to get Prince Werne's ending, you have to NOT save him from the thugs. As a matter of fact, the time I DID get Prince Werne's ending, I showed up at the scene where the thugs had captured him and decided that I didn't feel like saving him. (That was actually the first time I figured out the 'arimasen' option. For some reason I REALLY didn't like Prince Werne from the get go and decided saving his ass was the LAST thing I wanted to do.) It wasn't until I had gotten the perfect Prince Werne ending, the bad Hector ending, and the good Sergei ending that I decided to try saving the prince. (And since you have to save him in order to even THINK about getting Lawrence's romantic sub-plot, I didn't get around to that for a while.)
So for anyone who is still reading this post even though I just decided to go off on a silly rant about Silver Chaos (mmmm, Silver Chaos), I just watched Bend it Like Beckham. (mmmm, David Beckham) It's a really fun movie, and I'm not just saying that because the main character has a FANTASTIC poster of David Beckham hanging above her bed. (I sure wouldn't mind waking up to THAT beautiful face every morning.) So those of you who live in my apartment and have yet to watch it (who shall remain nameless), you should. Also, if you don't live here and you haven't watched it, I suppose you should too. Right after watching Saved. Whether or not you've seen it before. It's such a fun movie. ("I am FILLED with Christ's love.")
So the list of the hottiest hotties is now headed up by:
1. David Beckham (Mmmm.....)
2. Eric Szmanda (Though ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kingofgeeks will think he needs to be bumped up a notch)
3. Lawrence from Silver Chaos (Just because he's animated doesn't mean he's not yummy)
Yes....
This is all true...........
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| The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly |
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| 05:50pm 04/07/2005 |
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Well, the bad news is my computer is in a while lot of pain. The good news is that my computer is NOT dead like I had suspected it was. It's not remotely in a state that I would call "usable" at the moment, but it does seem to be back in the realm of fixable. Unfortunately, I am rather convinced that to fix it is going to require a Windows XP disk. *sigh* But I'm not going to complain. As long as it stays in the realm of fixable, I'm happy. |
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| Totally Confused And Frustrated |
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| 02:26am 22/06/2005 |
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I think it will be entirely too easy for this post to be an annoying pity plea, so I want to address that idea in advance. I do not request pity. I do not request sympathy. I only request understanding. You might think that my problems are tiny and insignificant, and you're welcome to. The only thing I ask is that you atleast be willing to understand where I'm coming from. That's it.
P.S.: This ended up being mainly just a really uninteresting, really long discourse on the increasing frustrations between myself and my roommate. I imagine it is completely uninteresting to anyone who isn't currently living in my house, so I will make it it's own post with an lj-cut. If you really feel like you want to read it, you're welcome to, but I really don't think it's an interesting read. I'll save all the juicy stuff for my next post. Depending on whether or not sleep even thinks about coming for me soon, that might actually follow this evening.
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| 02:08am 15/06/2005 |
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Well, I finished Cabaret. If you haven't seen the movie, don't bother. Go see the play, or something. It's a heck of a lot better. They took out all of the male Cabaret dancers, and one of the funniest songs ever, "Two Ladies", which is supposed to be about a guy, a girl, and a drag queen who all live together and have sex is now about a guy and two ladies. So lame. Play = way better. Plus the play was a lot darker. In the movie, the Nazism was just a back drop that didn't have anything to do with what was going on. In the play, it starts off very subtle, but by the end the Nazis are very much the antagonists.
On to much more important information. I'm kinda sorta seein' somebody, which is great. I finally have a release for the sexual pressures that have built up over the last year. I'm sure some of you really didn't want to hear that, but I'm so happy about it that I just felt the need to share.
Unfortunately, now that I have a release for those pressures, I'm starting to see the other places my life is all messed up right now. No rest for the wicked, I guess. My roommate and I got into a stupid petty arguement, nothing serious, this evening, but it got me thinking. Lately, I really have gotten the impression that he really doesn't like talking to me. I suppose I should take a moment to defend him and say his point of view. He keeps saying that he spends so much time talking to people he doesn't want to talk to at work, that he would rather just come home and have quiet time. Maybe I'm just being greedy, but it really makes me sad that my roommate would rather I just leave him alone and not talk to him. I mean it wouldn't matter if he was just my roommate, but he really is one of my best friends. But can you have a best friend you don't talk to? I'm really kinda frustrated. I think I'm going to put more of a conscious effort to leaving him alone. I understand that he doesn't really want to talk at home and he did tell me that from the beginning. I just didn't really comprehend it until now.
The problem, thus, is that I am a very sociable person who really likes to talk who is now in a situation where I have no one to talk to. I mean my new guy is great and all, but he is so busy between work, his interior design classes, planning his mother's wedding, and going to his wine class that I can only really justify spending 1 night a week with him. I know he wants to spend more time with me, and he has tried to make time for me, but it's been me who has been the voice of reason telling him that he needs to get all of his work done for his classes. I really don't want to feel responsible for keeping him from doing what he needs to get done. Then I would be responsible for making his life a stupid quagmire just as much as my own.
Yeah, so I finally have someone and I'm still depressed. Conclusion: I'm a whiny bitch and I need to shut up and get over myself. Got it. Glad I'm finally coming to terms with it. |
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| Cabaret |
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| 09:58pm 14/06/2005 |
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Well, I'm only about 15 minutes into the movie version of Cabaret and I'm already WILDLY disappointed. For one thing, they seem to have removed all references to homosexuality. I'm really curious of "Two Ladies" is actually going to be about two ladies. For another thing, they've even taken the sexual implications out of most of the lines. I'm not sure what the point in watching Cabaret is if there is no sex or homosexuality. I'll watch it to the end to give it a fair try anyway. |
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| 11:32pm 01/06/2005 |
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Why is it that drinking causes you to want to do certain... things.... but then it makes you unable to do exactly that? Well, that's my thought of the day. |
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| This is probably a mistake |
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| 12:20am 26/05/2005 |
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Okay, I do believe I am atleast sober enough to understand that I am only writing this journal entry because of how incredibly drunk I am. It would seem I have to go back over just about every word I write, so if I end up with some typos I apologize. The last shot I drank is still working it's way through my vains. Well, I really shouldn't say what I'm about to say, because both my roommates read my journal. However, I just can't keep my emotions bottled in any longer, even if I know voicing them is probably a bad idea. It seems like every night my male roommate flirts insesantly (wow, I have NO idea how that word is spelled right now) with both me and his girlfriend (also his roommate). I get all worked up with desire, because I have been SO in heat lately, then he goes off to bed with his girlfriend. It's so frustrating. The worst part is that I really don't even find him sexually attractive. I mean, we dated once, for a short while, way back, but he has done some things since then that really made me angry. I mean, the entire time we were dating, he was constantly telling me that he didn't want to get too attached, because he was planning on moving out with his best friend David. He was always telling me that since he was moving away with David, we shouldn't really get too close. I decided that if we shouldn't be getting close, we shouldn't be dating. I mean what the FUCK is the point in that!? (I apologize for the profanity, but thinking back on it makes me so angry.) But what REALLY gets my goat is what happened AFTERWARDS. So I finally break up with him because I don't see the point in dating someone that is unwilling to form any commitment. He starts dating this other girl almost immediately after I break up with him. Get this, this parts a kicker. He desides to tell me that he likes this girl enough that he is considering not moving because of her. WOW, that made me angry. He was basically telling me that I was not good enough that he would EVER consider staying here for me, but this other girl was. That hurt really badly. Well he ended up breaking up with that girl and now he is with this other girl. All three of us are living together. I really don't find him sexually attractive anymore. I mean he hurt me really badly and I will never forget that. But I am SO in heat lately, and he keeps flirting with me because he is in heat too. But ultimately what ends up happening is he goes off to bed with his girlfriend and I am left with the internet for comfort. Wow, I have drank way too much. I am VERY sorry that this whole post is just one long paragraph, but I really can't seem to think in paragraphs anymore. It's the most I can do to fix all the typos I keep making. My god, I have such a need to have some physical contact with another guy right now. I ran into this one guy that I haven't seen in forever. I really don't think of him as physically attractive, but for some reason I can't meet him without flirting with him. He is SUCH a newbie that he is totally unwilling to make a serious pass at me, so we just flirt back and forth and that is all that happens. A part of me wishes that I had taken his number this time so that I could be having a meaningless one night stand right now that would be meeting my need for physical intimacy. At least for the moment. Another part of me think that I should just keep drinking more Aftershock until I pass out. I don't know what to do. I'm so sexually frustrated, but I have so little interest in a one night stand. I seem to have sexual urges with my roommate on a near nightly basis, and I really don't think it would be appropriate to act on them. I don't even think it is appropriate to talk about those urges here on live journal. But then, if I don't feel live journal is appropriate to voice my inner needs and wants, then where the HELL am I supposed to voice them? Or am I supposed to never voice them and just feel them building up inside me? I big part of me is telling me that I should just delete this post right now, but another part if me is telling me to post it and then go get another shot. And sadly the part that is telling me to post this and then drink until I pass out, while wholy irrational, seems to be winning. I hope I haven't lost too much respect from those few people who read this journal (all of which I care about. I have been very careful to not add ANYONE to my friends list if I didn't atleast think they were an excellent human being). I just really needed to say some stuff that has been building up inside me. I think I'm very glad that I got this all off my chest, even though I'm sure a lot of you will think that this is the same emo whining blog that every other live journal is. I love you all, I really do. I just don't love myself. And so because of that, I'm going to keep drinking the only legal poison until I can't think anymore. Life is so much easier that way. |
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| Housten, we have a problem |
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| 11:55pm 25/05/2005 |
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I seem to have a small problem here. The more I drink, the hornier I get. The hornier I get, the more depressed I get. The more depressed I get, the more I want to drink. I'm not really sure what to do. Other than drink more. |
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| From my new friend, the KingOfGeeks |
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| 02:43am 25/05/2005 |
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Well, I don't usually post the call and response memes, as I like to call them, but this one seems like fun. Each of you gets to ask me ANY 5 questions, no matter how personal or how strange, and I answer them 100% truthfully. Lets see what you gentlemen (and very few ladies) throw at me. |
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| "Why don't they just make cat vibrators?" - My Roommate |
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| 11:30pm 17/05/2005 |
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Well, my roommate (who said the fantastic line I used as my subject line) finally got her digital camera up and running, so I decided it was high time I got some pictures of myself on here. I put a couple head shots as live journal pics, but then the rest of them went up on my MySpace photo album. Keep in mind that I JUST made my MySpace account, so don't expect everything to be all pretty.
Well, scratch that. Apparently the MySpace link was having troubles, so I'm going to see if I can learn enough HTML in 3 minutes to post pictures in here. *starts the clock* Well, looks like I did it with 2 minutes to spare. Guess that was easier than I thought.
( Here are the pictures, finger's crossed... ) |
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| Good Idea/Bad Idea |
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| 11:37pm 16/05/2005 |
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Well, I'm intoxicated again. Not by much, yet, but the urge to go back for another glass of that hot fire is rapidly rising. Maybe it's a bad idea. Maybe I'm just trying to drown my sorrows and ignore the world around me. Maybe I just want to loosen up and get a good nights sleep. Alls I know is that when I drink, I'm in heat and I don't have any way to satisfy that, which sucks.
I started talking to my ex-boyfriend, and I think I might have feelings for him still. I don't currently plan to tell him, because while he has been very nice to me this time around, every other time I have tried to contact him since high school he has been a total jerk. To be totally honest, I have no idea why I would still be interested in him, seeing as how he was such a jerk to me when we dated that I broke up with him TWICE. Maybe it's just that he is my only boyfriend that I have gone to sleep next to. It's a beautiful, wonderful, magical feeling to go to sleep next to someone that you love and wake up next to them.
That is actually one of the biggest reasons I broke up with my last boyfriend. It started off that he was in an open relationship and he was always totally honest with his husband, but the more attached he and I got, the more his husband started feeling jealous and left out, which ultimately lead to me feeling like the other man. While that relationship was a tremendous growing, learning experience and while I would never undo having had that relationship, I am definitely going to leave that as my one and only attempt at an open relationship. There was just too much opportunity for pain and I knew it wasn't the situation for me to begin with.
Well, can I just end this post by saying that my favorite thing about mix drinks is that the more of them you pore, the less you taste the alcohol and the less you are in control of how much alcohol you put in them, so each one is more intoxicating than the last AND each one goes down faster. Bottoms up! |
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| It's been a long time |
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| 02:53pm 14/05/2005 |
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Well, I guess since I'm back to using my LJ account full time and am joining communities and making friends I should probably post an update. I'm not living in Portland anymore. That went very poorly, to say the least. Well, it was an experience, and working for Portland's Gay and Lesbian Yellow Pages was a lot of fun. My roommate said some REALLY nasty things, which is ultimately why I left so fast. I don't really care to go into it. I'll just file it under E for emotional scars with the rest of the stuff I deal with. Not going to let it hold me down.
I'm living with one of my best friends and his girlfriend in a small 1 bedroom apartment, which is made extra pleasant by the fact that two of his friends are using his house as storage as they're away on.... well, I guess it's best described as a mission. So there is 5 people's stuff in a one bedroom apartment that is populated by 3 people, one cat who likes to destroy things, and one cat that shows no signs of figuring out the whole litter box thing. But all and all, things are good, I guess. It's good to be living with someone who cares about me. It's good to be back in a familiar environment. I have never felt at home ever since I left Ireland and I'm sure I wouldn't feel any more at home there now, but I am glad to atleast be in a familiar environment. It's helping to ground me.
I don't have a job right now, and so a good day is a day when I get to eat two meals. I am fairly impressed by my coaping skills, however, as one of my biggest fears in life has always been not knowing where my next meal will come from. But I'm getting by, and that's what's important.
I'm really lonely right now, because my roommate has to work a lot, as he works two jobs right now as well as running his own business. I got really depressed last night about relationships and how hard they are to find. It is so very hard for me to build up the courage to meet new people, so the odds of me meeting someone, being willing to ask if they're gay, them liking me, and them being interested in a long term monogamous relationship are spectacularly small. This thought made me really depressed last night, and so I started drinking. "Never drink alone, Scarlet. People are bound to find out and it ruins the reputation." - Rhett. Okay, I need to end this post here before I get any more depressed. I'll try to make the next update a happier one. |
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| Pretty True |
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| 04:42am 14/05/2005 |
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to good manners and elegance. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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| This And Other News In 30 Seconds |
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| 02:57pm 27/09/2004 |
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I don't have much time to post on here. I moved to Oregon. Just outside Portland to be specific. I don't have my own computer, but I will try to hop on here and check out what's going on as often as possible. I'm currently using Kat Corbett's computer, for those of you who know her, which I think is almost everyone who reads this. I really just wanted to hop on and tell you all that I got up here safely, that I love it here, and that I have an interview tomorrow. Wish me luck! I love and miss every last one of you. |
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| Looking Up |
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| 10:34am 05/09/2004 |
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I finally got Utena and I watched it again. I am very pleased to inform everyone that it's done wonders for cheering me up. I was feeling much better after Azure Pailer Than Sky. To those of you who haven't seen this show, I heavily recommend that you do. The biggest reason that I've been feeling down lately is that I've lost sight of my fairy tale, as I like to put it. I had lost hope that I would ever be able to have what I wanted. I know it sounds pathetic, but Utena really has reminded me to keep trying.
I know I don't post often enough, and I'm sorry this one is so short, but I'll end it on an up note. Last night I saw Fez from That 70's Show at a restaurant. He was on a date with his girlfriend, the chick from Freaky Friday. I am glad I was able to get my first (and second) celebrity sighting before I left California. :) I suspect I will be out of here some time between three and four weeks from now. I'm really looking forward to it (except for the drive.) |
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| 04:55pm 22/08/2004 |
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Wow, I really don't post very often, do I. My life has turned mostly to shit lately, and I've gotten so depressed that I cringe when someone touchs me. My biggest regret right now is that I haven't put the effort into keeping in contact with all of you, and my greatest blessing is that I'm realizing it now, before it is too late to rectify. I love all you guys. And Stephie, my one female reader. :) |
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